Our children listen to everything. They listen to love, hope, fear, curse words, anger, resentment...even if they don't express it they are always listening (and watching!)
I have a lot of Doctor's appointments. The fertility treatments are timed and very calculated. Most of the time I try to make my appointments very early in the morning so that I can go by myself before Keith has to go to work. This would be because the first time I brought Bryce to my 10x10 box of a room and they began doing the transvaginal ultrasound he ran to the Doctor's side and exclaimed 'WHAT ARE THEY DOING TO YOUR BUTT?????'...I wasn't amused. The next time he had a checkup he asked the Doctor if they were going to put a stick in his butt. I'm surprised my son still belongs to me judging by the look of horror on her face.
Ok I'm exaggerating...his pediatrician thought it was funny. My Doctor did not.
Anyhow- so every night before bed Bryce and I sing our lullaby. Go to sleep my Bryce, sleep now big boy you, Go to sleep my Bryce and dream of (insert whatever fun things we did that day), flowers in the sunshine and boats upon a lake, dream my big boy Bryce, I'll see you when you wake...Dream my big boy Bryce I'll see you when you wake!
Bryce: no you won't, sometimes you are gone when I wake up in the morning so sometimes you don't see me when I wake.
(insert my broken bleeding heart)
Me: Aw honey, I'm sorry, I thought we were just singing our song. How about when I'm going to the Doctor the next morning we sing 'I won't see you when you wake but I'll be right back soon after you wake up' lol. He obliged.
It's just amazing to me how literal kids are.
According to Keith when I have my appointments, Bryce wakes up and walks around the house looking for me for about 5 minutes, then comes back to our room and asks Keith 'where is mommy?' and Keith tells him and he says Bryce sighs and says 'ok'. I feel so bad that all those nights I told him I'd see him when he woke and I wasn't there!
So- on to fertility treatment news. There is none really. I had a scan and my follicles were not growing so they did another dose (upped my dose) of the meds and now I have 2 follicles growing (no that does not mean twins) it just gives the 'boys' a better shot at fertilizing something. So here is hoping it is our month!!! I just did my trigger shot (the injection that makes me ovulate) and our IUI is Friday morning. Send some positive thoughts!!!
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