So now that it is official, I can announce that yes I got a job.
I'll back up. I saw an email for a company saying they were looking for a stay at home parent who wanted some extra money.
Direct sales? nope
Telemarketing? nope
Pyramid scheming? nope
This is a real honest to goodness job! I will be selling ad space on a family oriented website. I'll post it here once I train for my position. The site is well-established and has thousands and thousands of visitors per month... so that will be appealing to potential advertisers!
We haven't discussed the particulars but I believe she mentioned me heading up some of the blogging that will be launching on her site too...but I'm not 100% sure about that part. I'm not sure if she wants me writing the blog or selling ad space on the blog topics. We shall see!
In other news, we just finished our 4th IUI. It was a fast cycle and the IUI timing came as a surprise. I went in one morning and IUI the next morning. Like...what? It's usually over the course of a few days/week. *shrug*. I feel the same about this IUI that I did about the first 2. The 3rd I KNEW I was going to get pregnant. I also knew I was going to get pregnant with Bryce. So I know I won't be pregnant this cycle. Not only was it too fast, but the follicle was much much much too large. I believe they triggered (the shot) an over mature follicle. I'm not a doctor...but that's what a lot of research has told me.... I'm thinking we will need to move on...either IVF or nothing...and we're leaning towards nothing. IVF is too expensive. And I'm heart broken. And that's an understatement.
On the Bryce front---He tried watermelon! Sounds like no big deal to most but it's huge in this house!
That's all- wish me luck for training.
Monday, April 24, 2017
Saturday, April 8, 2017
Moving on...
That's the best way to describe it. It is really eerie to think my body got rid of something we've been wanting for so long. I'm sad but more than that I am ready to pick up the pieces and continue with my life. I've got more treatment coming up and hopefully it works this time because the heartache is consuming.
Bryce and I had a great time today. Our complex has food truck/events. They had bounce houses, food, easter egg hunt, the easter bunny. The works. We decided to take it easy today and not do any work on the new house. I've been there everyday for at least 2 weeks. Keith is working so hard to make some OT so that we can do this round of treatment. He's amazing. School, 3 jobs. He's just plain amazing to have as a husband. We do have issues, but working as a team is not one of them.
He tells people constantly how he's amazed that I care for our son and keep a house going. I feel like I do nothing while he does everything. I'm doing something I wanted to do, be a stay at home mom and home school, and he works like a crazy person.
Tonight is night 3 of 5 of my pills to make me ovulate. So...fingers crossed it works. My scan is on the 17th... Please share our gofundme (found on my facebook) so that we can possibly get the funds to do our next scan.
Thanks everyone
Bryce and I had a great time today. Our complex has food truck/events. They had bounce houses, food, easter egg hunt, the easter bunny. The works. We decided to take it easy today and not do any work on the new house. I've been there everyday for at least 2 weeks. Keith is working so hard to make some OT so that we can do this round of treatment. He's amazing. School, 3 jobs. He's just plain amazing to have as a husband. We do have issues, but working as a team is not one of them.
He tells people constantly how he's amazed that I care for our son and keep a house going. I feel like I do nothing while he does everything. I'm doing something I wanted to do, be a stay at home mom and home school, and he works like a crazy person.
Tonight is night 3 of 5 of my pills to make me ovulate. So...fingers crossed it works. My scan is on the 17th... Please share our gofundme (found on my facebook) so that we can possibly get the funds to do our next scan.
Thanks everyone
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
Update to yesterday
I hope everyone is doing well this morning.
Me? Eh. I'm having a hard time today but that's because 'it' started. TMI and enough info for you on that front today.
Other than that I called my doctor to tell him 'it' started and we cancelled my blood work for today. We will be doing the blood work and my first scan Thursday instead. Hopefully the levels have gone back down so we can start the process all over LE SIGH
I also started a gofundme... and I am truly sorry to anyone who thinks less of us or judges us for doing so...but if anyone understands, it would be my fellow hard workers and paycheck to paycheck earners. Health care is so darn expensive no matter what plan you have.
We had 2 choices, either high deductible and they deposit a little bit in to your HSA for you, OR a copay which is easier on the wallet BUT you can't choose your doctors AND have to stay in one of two networks. Either OrlandoHealth or ....I forget the other. But if one Doctor you like is in one, and the other is in another....you're SOL!
Today I think we will relax. Keith is working all 3 jobs today and I think Bryce and I will take it easy, drink some tea, and maybe go paint the other rooms in the house. Who am I kidding? I'll paint, Bryce will step in it and drag it around :)
I won't link the gofundme here, I think that's silly and trying to bait you to click and donate. If you want to donate the link is on my facebook, also if you can't donate please share.
Me? Eh. I'm having a hard time today but that's because 'it' started. TMI and enough info for you on that front today.
Other than that I called my doctor to tell him 'it' started and we cancelled my blood work for today. We will be doing the blood work and my first scan Thursday instead. Hopefully the levels have gone back down so we can start the process all over LE SIGH
I also started a gofundme... and I am truly sorry to anyone who thinks less of us or judges us for doing so...but if anyone understands, it would be my fellow hard workers and paycheck to paycheck earners. Health care is so darn expensive no matter what plan you have.
We had 2 choices, either high deductible and they deposit a little bit in to your HSA for you, OR a copay which is easier on the wallet BUT you can't choose your doctors AND have to stay in one of two networks. Either OrlandoHealth or ....I forget the other. But if one Doctor you like is in one, and the other is in another....you're SOL!
Today I think we will relax. Keith is working all 3 jobs today and I think Bryce and I will take it easy, drink some tea, and maybe go paint the other rooms in the house. Who am I kidding? I'll paint, Bryce will step in it and drag it around :)
I won't link the gofundme here, I think that's silly and trying to bait you to click and donate. If you want to donate the link is on my facebook, also if you can't donate please share.
Monday, April 3, 2017
What's in a miscarriage?
I'll bet that title got your attention...
In an effort to be transparent we've decided to share this roadblock in our journey.
We are having (I am having) a miscarriage. Right now. As you're reading this I am losing a baby. A baby that had no guarantee, a baby that we paid $1,000 (PER MONTH) for (so almost $3,000 so far this year), a baby that we've paid for each month and still haven't met our $3,000 deductible (yes...many things are not covered when you're doing infertility treatment), a baby that we've hoped and prayed for endlessly, a baby that we already named...the day we found out, the baby that we told Bryce about, a baby we told our closest friends and families about, a baby.
Right now it is up in the air what is going on. I was very early for starters. It's either a chemical pregnancy (one that you lose before your missed period) or an ectopic. If it is ectopic I have 2 choices. Medications (which has WONDERFUL side effects including but not limited to: death, bone marrow and blood issues, hair loss, tumor growth) OR surgery to remove part of my female organs.
We are really hoping it's a chemical pregnancy type miscarriage. Yes you read that right...we are hoping for the less of the miscarriage 'types'.
To say we are devastated would be a massive understatement. You put all your eggs (HA! eggs!) in one ovary-I mean basket- and really hope for a good turn out. The good news? I am able to get pregnant. The bad news? Our HSA ran out and moving forward until we meet our deductible, it will be all out of pocket. We aren't quite sure we CAN continue...but we are SO close!
What have the reactions been like? Well, I will preface this with something... there have been some insensitive reactions. The preface is- I will share them but please understand that I'm not upset with the comments. In situations such as these I think people try to find SOMEthing to say rather than nothing. So if it has to be something insensitive, it's better than them shrugging their shoulders...in their opinions.
I've been told that maybe God didn't want me to have a baby right now. My argument for that is simply this- if that is true then why did God want a child abuser to have a baby right now?
I've been told it was my stress level. My argument for that is 'so every pregnant woman out there has been zen? Nah...I'm pretty sure a ton of women are stressed and then find out they're pregnant'. Also- yeah...even if I am stressed (and who wouldn't be buying a house that ended up being infested with bugs?) it isn't my fault. I won't take the blame for this miscarriage.
Others have just been sorry. Which is amazing. The ones that have been really helpful are the ones who check in on me every couple days because that lets me know they're thinking of me.
I have an appointment tomorrow to make sure my levels are going down. If they are then we can proceed if we choose. If not, then we have to find out what is going on.
In an effort to be transparent we've decided to share this roadblock in our journey.
We are having (I am having) a miscarriage. Right now. As you're reading this I am losing a baby. A baby that had no guarantee, a baby that we paid $1,000 (PER MONTH) for (so almost $3,000 so far this year), a baby that we've paid for each month and still haven't met our $3,000 deductible (yes...many things are not covered when you're doing infertility treatment), a baby that we've hoped and prayed for endlessly, a baby that we already named...the day we found out, the baby that we told Bryce about, a baby we told our closest friends and families about, a baby.
Right now it is up in the air what is going on. I was very early for starters. It's either a chemical pregnancy (one that you lose before your missed period) or an ectopic. If it is ectopic I have 2 choices. Medications (which has WONDERFUL side effects including but not limited to: death, bone marrow and blood issues, hair loss, tumor growth) OR surgery to remove part of my female organs.
We are really hoping it's a chemical pregnancy type miscarriage. Yes you read that right...we are hoping for the less of the miscarriage 'types'.
To say we are devastated would be a massive understatement. You put all your eggs (HA! eggs!) in one ovary-I mean basket- and really hope for a good turn out. The good news? I am able to get pregnant. The bad news? Our HSA ran out and moving forward until we meet our deductible, it will be all out of pocket. We aren't quite sure we CAN continue...but we are SO close!
What have the reactions been like? Well, I will preface this with something... there have been some insensitive reactions. The preface is- I will share them but please understand that I'm not upset with the comments. In situations such as these I think people try to find SOMEthing to say rather than nothing. So if it has to be something insensitive, it's better than them shrugging their shoulders...in their opinions.
I've been told that maybe God didn't want me to have a baby right now. My argument for that is simply this- if that is true then why did God want a child abuser to have a baby right now?
I've been told it was my stress level. My argument for that is 'so every pregnant woman out there has been zen? Nah...I'm pretty sure a ton of women are stressed and then find out they're pregnant'. Also- yeah...even if I am stressed (and who wouldn't be buying a house that ended up being infested with bugs?) it isn't my fault. I won't take the blame for this miscarriage.
Others have just been sorry. Which is amazing. The ones that have been really helpful are the ones who check in on me every couple days because that lets me know they're thinking of me.
I have an appointment tomorrow to make sure my levels are going down. If they are then we can proceed if we choose. If not, then we have to find out what is going on.
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