So I'll do a little rambling...

Today is Bryce's 1st birthday. I am so excited and a little melancholy at the same time. I feel so blessed that he is a happy healthy baby boy but I am also afraid I may not be able to have more children. Bryce was conceived through fertility treatments (progesterone, metformin, clomid baby) and although we got him on the first try (Go Keith!) we know that it may not happen like that again. I do feel very happy that I have been able to breastfeed as 1/3 of women with PCOS are not able to. Bryce is still almost 100% breastfed...it's been a long journey and a difficult one sometimes but I am SO glad I stuck with it. I feel like it is what is best for him and I love what it has done for our bonding experience. Alright--so there is a tiny bit about me. What else? I enjoy long walks on the beach and...oh save it. I feel like I'll keep expressing who I am little by little. For now...I'll share his first birthday cake recipe which turned out AMAZING (it's non-dairy; no eggs as Bryce has allergies.... poor guy) anyhow...for no dairy and no eggs it was purty good! 1.5 c flour 1 c sugar (I used organic cane sugar) 1/4 cup cocoa powder (I used organic raw cocoa powder) 1 tsp baking soda 1/2 tsp salt 1 tsp vinegar (I used organic apple-cider vinegar) 1 tsp vanilla 1/3 cup oil (I used organic whole kernel coconut oil Dr. Bronner's Brand) 1 c Cold Water (I used all-natural cold pressed whole kernel organic filtered water...from my fridge...?) I wasn't able to find a suitable frosting... the one I got was labeled egg-free, dairy free, nut free...frosting...but when I opened it it was more like a sticky glazed thing..and didn't taste very good) I was in a time crunch and had no time to make my own butter-free butter cream icing...sooooooooooo off to Publix I went at 7AM to pick up their tub of butter cream. I barely glanced at the ingredients when I started getting nervous about the stuff I saw...(including the dairy and eggs) but not limited to the artificial ingredients... So off we went to our family photo shoot. It was really fun (post pictures later) but when we got to the cake part...he was NOT having it. That's ok though...he is only 1 (tear!). Once we were finished and got in the car (just in time for milky milk!) he broke out in hives...just like I said he would. When he nurses (if I've eaten dairy or eggs) he poos blood :-( He hasn't gotten sick though...but we'll know for sure next time (I was hoping it was just a reaction when he gets it through breast milk) That's all for now. What things have you learned as a parent to 'just let go'? Cake smash sessions? Opening presents? Please share :-)